Wednesday, December 20, 2017

THOUGHTS: 2 MONTHS OLD NUWAYLA

Time do flies. It feels macam baru semalam I gave birth to my daughter and today she’s growing into such an adorable baby I could never imagine of. Still remember when I had her in my belly, I’d always wonder and asked habib what my baby will look alike? Nanti dia macam muka mami ke muka abi ke? I wonder so much that made me scared. 

Insecurity wei. I’d this insecurity of my own self-looking since forever. Tak confident with my own looks, would I be frustated or worry if she copies me so much. Habib selalu marah bila I cakap macamtu. And that each time lah Habib akan yakinkan myself, that I’m pretty and thats why he chooses me. Dehhhhh 



But looking at her now. Those shiny little eyes. I’m in a relief. Tak kira la how many times I heard a clashing opinions from people; kejap kata muka abi, kejap kata muka mami, kejap tanya muka siapa dia ikut— dehh! Tbh, I don’t really bother now coz everytime I look at my Nuwayla— I see an ambitious and full of wonders little girl of mine overthere! Just like how she represents her name, Nuwayla = Achiever. InshaAllahh. 

Only 2 months old but for me she nails everything that 2 months baby could do. Scientifically she may seems to be normal but to me she is truly my achiever. Since the day her tali pusat tanggal when she was only 4 days old, I knew the name would represent her so much in that department. InshaAllah Ya Allah! Super big responsibilites on our shoulder to guide this little munchkin! 

At the same time we are also a 2 months old new parent who experienced new things errdayy. Gets excited, challenging and fun allzetime-still. Especially when Nuwayla make faces or smiles while she’s sleeping— and that all time lah, Mami jadi jakun. Each. Time.

On other department, having a girl as the first child is   quite a challenge sebab we both; me and habib are quite boyish especially in terms to pakaian anak. We both— dont really fancy for Nuwayla to wear a really-girly clothing kind of thing. Lols! As if the baju will affect the behavior pula kan? But so far, I still made her looks like what she supposed to lah. She’s a girl and I’m a girl anyway. 



Cheeky girl! 
Our Nuwayla in a Blue Sweater and Sweat Pant. Just like Abi who wears sweat pant most of the time. 

Checked. 

Till then! 

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